Sonnettics

She danced and I wrote poetry; we met
Her beauty was a truth I can’t forget
Our friendship blossomed well beyond that night
She taught me words that I could never write
Her name, Rachelle, became a clearer note
than anything I’d heard, so then I wrote
her name beside my name within my heart
and hoped our names would never be apart
Some days went slow; some days went all too fast
Then months, then years, she married me at last
Thus, name to name, I took her hand in mine
I kissed my bride and thought she was divine
One happy day she brought to me our son
I thought that day our lives had just begun

At 2 a.m. her voice is shedding sleep
Beneath the sleep her sweet emotions rise
Now naked, they have promises to keep
From where I am I don’t divert my eyes
I’ve seen her all; I love her all, exposed
Emotions can be naked in her speech
Our time zone difference means she is reposed
She isn’t close at all, but I can reach
my own emotions, tender at her voice
along the line we’ve opened through the night
then let my own emotions have the choice
of nakedness, although they’re out of sight
I choose to let them bare with hers, the same
because I feel her frequency, un-tame.

Her voice is not awake; I feel it stretch
It spreads itself across my starving skin
If she were in my room I’d let her etch
her nails upon my arms; she’d let me in.
Our naked, soft emotions would find haste
in places where our bodies long to taste.

I miss the way you lean your head on me
and how it feels right then to kiss your cheek
So close I tell myself that we can be
together, sharing kisses, then you speak:
“I love you, Scott,” I dream I hear you say
“I love you too, and wish that you were here.”
I dread the thought of spending one more day
alone, without my whispers in your ear
Come lean your head upon me, wrap your skin
around my shoulders, hands upon my back
From there I’m close enough to be within
From here I feel you too, and yet we lack
Your warmth is always with me gorgeous friend
I miss so much of you we’ll never end!

For loss I held my breath; the air was pure
My camoflage was mottled and obscure
I wore it so that I’d be sanctified
if I inhaled or even if I tried
The inhalation came within my chest
I held it in; I thought that that was best
For no one gives a damn what I take in
but exhalation is a cardinal sin
The CO2 demanded that I yell
and in the air so pure I should expel
the molecules of grime my body held
I swallowed once; I turned, and then I yelled
I know my breath was hidden in the cost
of filthy air where purity was lost.

Her loyalty, complete, belonged to me
when I was where I didn’t want to be
She knew me well, knew what I’d want and need
My body held me captive, so she freed
the man she loved by opening my heart
She’d done it once before: our very start
was when she saved me from a life alone
She gave her love to me and now I’ve grown
accustomed to her beauty and the way
she shares her love with me, and everyday
she takes the time to think of me, of “Us.”
I’ll make my point in couplet now, and thus:
I love how Kristin Mari rescued me
and if she does again, she’ll make it three.

You all evoke compassion from my heart
although I never try to make it start
It’s just a gift I came with and I’ve found
that I enjoy your beauty to surround
my life. I like to compliment your grace
or compliment the beauty of your face.
I know there’s more to beauty there inside
of you, but I’m just saying: don’t go hide.
My poetry is nothing without you
Sonnettics is a word you’ve made come true
I’ve said it once before, I love your voice
I’d always listen to you if the choice
was listening to you or music sweet.
This sonnet ends too soon, it’s incomplete.

Collapse within my arms, you needn’t fall
I’ll hold you up forever if I must
I’ll answer everytime you need to call
I plan to be the friend you always trust
We need to kiss, our hearts are full of love
Our hearts connect our words and make us feel
as close as knowing kisses are made of
the solid and the liquid; we are real.
I’ll hold your body with my arms. My eyes
will hold your eyes and wait for you to blink
That blink will let me know you want your sighs
to come because I love you and I think
your eyes deserve the best that they can get
and yes, I want my words to make you wet.

Go strike your head; don’t worry if you’re hurt
Someone will come and pick you up to mend
Maybe you’ll bleed into your city’s dirt
Maybe you’ll love a candy or a friend
Go strike your head and watch perspective fade
from clear and bright to smudged and dark, at best
Death only lasts as long as lives are made
and life alludes to what it will suggest
Go strike your head; no spirit in your brain
exists to tell your god that you have sinned
Feelings of truth will permeate your pain
Set yourself free into the cyclone wind
Magic is in the spells your ego casts
So, enjoy the fantasy while it lasts

She shines in mind and body, oh she shines
Her skin is soft and smooth and bears no lines
of gaudy wrinkles. Beauty from her beams
a ray of light she captures, and she gleams
By day she’s warm as sunlight on my face
at night, like stars, she takes me to a place
as far away from here as we can fly
a place my lover makes to satisfy
It doesn’t really matter where we go
Some country Diner works. They serve us slow
The time is ours to talk and build our love
The waitress wonders what we’re talking of
My lover says,”We come here every week.”
The waitress leaves and once again we speak

Green Lakes was heaven, when we took the girls
They swam or sat just off the beach like pearls
I still remember Maggie in the sand
I still remember holding Phoebe’s hand
We got them drinks; the snack bar wasn’t far
Our picnic dinner waited in the car
Like everyone around, we felt the sun
And, yes, we knew the lakes as where we’d run
I watched your muscles make your legs go fast
For now, Green Lakes exists within my past
And running at Green Lakes is just one goal
of what my future holds when I am whole
I want another picnic there with you
I want your precious girls to be there too