Sonnettics

I threw my pig shit out and cleaned my life
One shovel at a time; it wasn’t fun
But now I feel relaxed, and free from strife
It hurt like hell, and smelled, but now it’s done!
I’ve got a brand-new start; it’s fresh and clean
I’m glad I found the catalyst to act
She’s more than just my muse. Well. what I mean
Is that we trust each other. That’s a fact!
She listens, and she hears it in my voice
I’m liberated by the shit I’ve tossed
I chose to clean my life; the cleanly choice
Is right, no matter what one thinks it cost
My liberation makes it all worthwhile
And yes, it brings me joy and makes me smile.

When life becomes a cold, persistent tide
That washes in and out by some blind force
I watch the water rise as if to hide
My thoughts that cling to all my feelings’ source
My heart becomes the safety of a pier
And though the tide may cover it in time
I stand and feel there’s little I should fear
Although my thoughts are drowned, they’re still sublime
The tide may be subliminal, indeed
And all my thoughts are barnacles that cling
To this, my heart, as if they have a need
To stay with me, whatever fate may bring
I want the sun to warm me, where I stand
The tide is cold, and not what I had planned.

I don’t know how I know, but I’ve no doubt
Your words are more familiar than my voice
My pleasant feelings permeate without
The source of knowing, maybe it’s a choice
Of course I want to choose the way I feel
I’d be a fool to give it up or quit
I’ll hold your heart because I know it’s real
Without your heart, my words devolve to shit
I know I like the way we talk at night
I know I like it more than I can say
When whispers in your ear will not seem trite
And night will not just be the end of day
I won’t allow my words to ever cease
My thoughts of you will always bring me peace.

You told me to be open and direct
I want you to be open with me too
Remember, this is not what I expect
But making love is what I want to do
I want to hold you softly, skin-to-skin
I want to kiss you so erotically
That you will want to feel me, deep within
And you will want to move in sync with me
I doubt you don’t know where to go from here
You’re not naive or ignorant, I know
I hope this sonnet makes it crystal clear
That I will follow, anywhere you go!
Just tell me that you haven’t felt me yet
And by those words, the expectation’s set!

I want my love to trust me, but I know
Her life and mine have both been plagued by doubt
I want my love to stay, to never go
I feel that that’s what love is all about
I never want to violate her trust
It’s precious and it needs a precious home
Some things I want to do, and some I must
I can’t just paint my love in monochrome
My trust in her is central to my heart
I trust her like my verse relies on words
Though poetry can never quite impart
The way I feel; it’s clouds obscuring birds
I want my love to trust me; I’ll be true
It’s not just what I say; it’s what I’ll do.

I love to watch the finch; she builds her nest
By picking bits and pieces that she finds
Her comfort is secure; her home is best
I watch her build; I wonder if she minds?
I think she knows I’d never hurt her, no!
And yet she builds protection for her home
Her home is not a gilded cage, although
It’s metaphorically a golden dome
She found some metal pieces on the ground
She placed them ’round her nest and made them neat
It’s strange, the metal pieces that she found
Have made the home she’s building seem complete
I don’t know what the fickle future brings
But I will watch and listen as she sings.

This ecstasy of words is something new
I never knew the passion they could bring
When shared with someone who’s impassioned too
And loves to hear sonnettic words I sing
I guess iambic rhythm turns her on
Or else she feels my words are warm, like skin
But either way, the French would call it bon
La petite mort is started deep within
I need to make a lover of my friend
Our words compel our friendship to remain
The words of love will never have an end
Our wordless sounds will not be sung in vain
I want to make her scream in ecstasy
with passion that my lover feels for me.

I always thought my past was something real
But then it disappeared when I got hurt
My memories were dark and they’d conceal
The life I thought would never go inert
Today I feel the moments, sharp as pins
As thoughts cascade upon my life’s steep slope
I know each moment’s real as it begins
The avalanche of pain with which I cope
Tomorrow and tomorrow . . . It’s been said
My syllables are not some petty pace
Someday I may not care if I am dead
Someday I’ll plan to win some future race
The past, the present, future, all are mine
I love and hate them all as they combine.

She called me, though she didn’t have a clue
If I was some sadistic evil guy
Or something worse than that; she never knew
If she’d regret her phone call, by-and-by
I heard her drop the F-bomb, like a dare
To see if I offended easily
Or maybe just to see if I would care
That passion could proceed haphazardly
But words are more than passion in her voice
I heard her choose her words like something sweet
A kid would choose, like candy at the store
So what if it’s a word she might repeat?
I like her if she says it less or more
Irreverently, our conversation falls
But hey, they’re only words, and she’s got . . .

Extraordinary life is hard to live
You may not choose to be, and yet you are
Your brain gets strained, like pasta in a sieve
Your thoughts are mixed, like sauce within a jar
The table of your life is neatly set
But somebody forgot the centerpiece
Some Chardonnay can help your guests forget
The dinner of your life will never cease
Don’t worry. Rest assured, your life is good
It isn’t like some ordinary chow
Your guests will all enjoy it, and they should
They’ll feast on words of life you will endow
If life was easy, life would be a bore
Extraordinary makes it so much more!