Archive for November, 2008

Lover Too Late

Sunday, November 30th, 2008

This sonnet is a reworking of an earlier one:
First Touch of Our Second Child


I watch you place your hands upon your hips
and trace them to your belly, where they pause.
I watch your subtle, gentle fingertips
trace lovingly and linger where the cause
of this, your life’s creation makes you smile
again, like when you kissed me, skin to skin.
So half a life with him was worth your while
to bear another child of his within
your perfect body.
Solemnly you turn
to find my eyes upon your reverie
of life.  What fitful thoughts can you discern?
Does life create rapport? Then come to me
and place my dying hands upon the place
that bears the evidence of his embrace.

An Omnipresent Vision

Thursday, November 27th, 2008

So there you sit one day, today, your mind
awash in something that you drank to keep
you sane.  You think you see the stream that flows
through time, your time.  But high or low it’s all …
all omnipresent; you are god, you fool.
The time you dined with her is all the same
as when your sons were born and when you dreamed
you died, you drowned in crystal waters, deep
or when you swam, not caring if you lived
or like a happy fly, you died.  So fast
it flies, your life, down Oran-Delphi hill
as if you train for something you might win.
As yesterday the music that you fear
is played again and draws you ever near.

Winter

Wednesday, November 26th, 2008

My prayers, like snow, fall gently to the ground,
accumulate in drifts of quiet words.
I watch through frosted windows as the sound
of hallelujah’s beauty lies unheard.
The god of winter listens to my song
of joy with grace as cold and blue as ice.
My liquid soul is frozen, fast and strong,
entombed in patience.  Patience will suffice.
My heart beats once; a billion snowflakes fall.
I give each one a blessing and a name.
The overwhelming stillness of it all
becomes a benediction to proclaim
the love I feel, the love I want to sing
when beauty melts, when beauty blooms in spring.

Paper Boxes

Monday, November 24th, 2008

My thoughts are boxed in paper-folded squares
and lined like soldiers on my window sill:
my thoughts of you in dreams, caught unawares
of all the paper boxes I would fill
with images of how your wrist is curved
or how the sunlight combs your scented hair,
in hopes that every thought might be preserved
and let me always find them standing there.
But thoughts in paper boxes blow away
when windows are left open in a storm.
The paper melts in rain from clouds of gray
and dissipates the thoughts, no longer warm.
Like wisps of wind I watch them through my tears
and whisper their return through silent fears.

First Touch of Our Second Child

Sunday, November 23rd, 2008

I watch you place your hands upon your hips
and trace them to your belly, where they pause.
I watch your subtle, gentle fingertips
trace lovingly and linger where the cause
of this, your life’s creation makes you smile
again, like when you kissed me, skin to skin,
like countless years of love was worth your while
to bear another child of mine within
your perfect body.  Perfectly you turn
to find my eyes upon your reverie
of life.  What wistful thoughts can you discern?
Does life create rapport? You move to me
and move my hands with yours upon the place
that bears the love, the warmth of our embrace.

Nearer

Sunday, November 23rd, 2008

A thousand miles away the sweetest sigh
of love and longing leaves her lonely lips,
a prelude or a postlude to a cry
accompanied by trembling fingertips.
A thousand miles away I hear her hair
brush gently as it falls across her face,
the softest sound of which I am aware,
a subtle sound she amplifies with grace.
Nearby, the howl of autumn winds and rain
is deafening in all its autumn rage,
a furious sound of cacophonic pain
which struts and frets across my noisy stage.
But I, poor player, choose what I will hear,
and press the phone more firmly to my ear.

Dust. Wind. Dude.

Saturday, November 22nd, 2008

Before the earth became the earth, before
it formed into this ball of grand design–
Before the earth was nothing, nothing more
than dust, quintessent, minuscule and fine–
Before the man called Adam, being first,
became a man with hopes and dreams and lust–
Before becoming hunger, pain and thirst,
he too was nothing more nor less than dust.
And from the dust they say god made the earth;
and from the dust they say god made the man.
And to the dust, decaying from their birth,
they say it’s part of god’s eternal plan.
And yet it seems more simple to my mind:
That dust is simply everything, refined.

If I were nothing I would be a breeze
that starts from nothing, lives then disappears,
devoid of solid forms, formed by degrees
evoking neither useless hopes nor fears.
If I were nothing more I’d be a gale
that whips the water hard against the land.
Without remorse, relentless I would flail
the rocks of time to glasses filled with sand.
I’d have no name, but you would know my voice.
I’d live and die, then live and die again.
And following my path would be the choice
described by the futility of men.
I’d whip the chaff of souls of all who sinned,
but still I’d still be nothing but the wind.

A dude is just a guy like you or me,
an everyman within these latter days.
Instinctively he knows that he is free
to leave, although more frequently he stays.
He’ll stay when friends are boring, though he’ll yawn,
then laugh and tell them, “Dude, that story sucks.”
And after they have finished, when they’re gone,
he’ll laugh again as suddenly he’s struck
by something that was mentioned by the friend
that wasn’t quite as boring as he thought.
He’ll call on some pretense and then pretend
to be profound, although he’s really not.
He’s just a guy, a dude like you or me,
who knows that knowing nothing makes him free.

for Bill S. Preston, Esq. and Ted “Theodore” Logan

The Call

Thursday, November 20th, 2008

It’s dark and I am walking toward the night.
The streets are slick with mists and heavy sighs.
I only see reflections of the light
which blends into the asphalt, the reprise
of songs too cheap and tawdry for the day,
whose melodies are flickering and cold.
And yet they’re loud enough to guide the way
into the dark, the night, where I am told
that god no longer hears my footsteps fall
and I no longer care if god can hear,
because my soul has heard another call
that has no need of faith; it’s loud and clear.
It pierces me with certainty.  My breath
is measured now.  The call is simply death.

Holding Hands

Wednesday, November 19th, 2008

Your hands are perfect, intertwined with mine.
Remember how it feels to turn and kiss
while walking hand-in-hand?
You say, Sublime.
I smile and nod then start to reminisce
on how your perfect hands have touched my face
like love, directed by perfection’s heart.
You smile as I recite the time and place
of everywhere our hands were not apart.
I feel you lean against my arm tonight;
you find my hand like sunshine finds the dawn,
and softer than the touch of morning’s light
your hand caresses mine and lingers on.
It lingers in the warmth of skin-to-skin,
perfected as we turn and kiss again.

Distant Drive to Nowhere

Tuesday, November 18th, 2008

We slowly drove from happiness to guilt,
enjoyed the casual stops along the way
to see some monument that someone built,
or watch the purple sunset turn to gray.
The road was so much quieter at night;
the wheels were so much softer in the dark.
You tried to read the map without a light
and analyzed my every last remark.
The songs began to crackle and to fade
as farther from their signals we’d proceed.
Their tunes began to slowly be afraid
of interfering with some silent need.
And silence was the humming, static hiss
that never thought its songs would come to this.